For the ones who haven’t noticed, I’m gone. I left the Netherlands after almost 20 years I finally took the steps to move the funk out to become my fairy godmother and make my dreams come true. Starting in South East Asia: Thailand!! Where everything is possible.
The questions that were asked when I announced my moving away was: why do you want to leave, why Thailand? What’s your dream anyway? Well I will explain.
I am not made for the western world, I knew this as a kid. The first dream I seriously took steps to reach as a 11-year-old girl was to become an afro kunoichi (Japanese Ninja). I ran away at least 3 times with the plan to hitchhike all the way to Japan. Due to fear, my age, authorities and my “caregivers” I failed. (side note: can you imagine when later I got introduced to Afro Ninja manga in the library? I cried) When the attempts failed I decided to become a model to escape the situation I was in. But in a country that believed that one coloured girl is enough to represent the world population, I was always too late to become one. I failed and had to find new excuses to leave, which I thought I could find in by studying. Studying will get me abroad for sure .
However, I never followed through due to financial insecurities. Growing up, I couldn’t find any other examples or alternative ways to just go and make something out of my life in another country without money or connections. My confidence was beating out of me and my dreams ridiculed, making me feel like an idiot for even thinking of a better life somewhere else by my own. I was supposed to be grateful for living in a country even though I felt miserable. I really tried to stuck it up and made the best out of the situation I was in. Which I failed again and again, resulting in depression together with other factors of my life. I had no choice than to give up and find my happiness elsewhere.
I always dreamt of being a billionaire, a billionaire in the sense that I will have a positive influence on at least billion lives before I die. How I would reach my goals was the struggle I faced, as a girl with a broad interest in a lot of think. The one recurring subject I kept going back to was fashion. I always loved to dressed up and walk around like I was walking on a catwalk. I was that girl with a beautiful dress climbing in a tree while trying to look like a lady. So I wanted to combine the dream of becoming a billionaire and my passion for fashion. I first tried numerous jobs in the fashion industry which was very disappointing I’ll have to say. The negative impact fashion had on the world and the lack of care from the people behind it left me discouraged. So, I came up with a plan to reach that goal: starting an fairtrade, eco friendly clothing line that was fashionable and trendsetting to eliminate the fast fashion industry and high fashion snobbishness.
The clothing line is called Globally Ghetto (duh) and a percentage of the income will support my Billion dollars plan: ParaNation. I started this about 2 years ago in The Netherlands. Which I failed many of time, not because I gave up. No it was caused my many empty promises, dead-end appointments and people just straight up lying to your face about their capabilities (I talking about you Beth) which they don’t have. This all because I didn’t have enough money to find the right people to do exactly what I wanted. In those two years of working towards my goals, i spend nearly 5000 euros. I wouldn’t say that it was all a waste of money or time. I learned that if there is something to be done you better do it yourself or find someone who will do it for you for a price and with their reputation on the line. Or to move into another country where people are more honest in their capabilities and deceive.
With that in mind, I set I goal to find a study that catered to my needs: getting the funk out of the Netherlands but with something to offer. So I embarked into a new study that had everything I thought could help me with my goal. And in some ways it did. I went to study International Business & Innovation, a path that would lead me to my destiny. I thought. There I found out that the way I saw the world, life and love was different from my peers, teachers and the country I lived in. After two years or so I found myself in an existential crisis. Questioning my life and where it was heading. It didn’t awake any fire in me, it looked so depressing to me. I didn’t want to work for a boss, I was aware that my financial situation made it impossible for me to succeed on my own in Europe. Even though people around where convinced that I didn’t need any money to reach my goals. But I knew what I wanted and I wanted to start it now! Not in 3 years, 6 years and I didn’t wanted to start small either. The only solution I could think of was to leave, as I always wanted but didn’t had the balls to do so.
Now I’m 26 with boobs bigger than the average balls, I found the strength to go.
I received an offer I couldn’t say no to: would you like to go to Thailand and try to reach your goals there? And I said, Yeah why not. So I packed my bags and went to the land of all possibilities: Thailand
For now I am in Bangkok, making connection and starting all over again. Subscribe to follow my journey through the city of angels and my travel through Thailand.
Paranation is the non-profit organisation I want to start. Paranation will focus on bringing innovative solution/inventions to the people who would profit the most out of it in a way that influence their lives, environment
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See ya soon,